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Poem: Mr Confidence


This is a poem about the Journey of Confidence. Most of us can relate to second guessing yourself, even if your life is full of validation and what others see as success. Its about our own journeys of transformation and learning that beauty is an internal light.

Mr. Confidence

I met Mr. Confidence the other day,

I looked at his reflection and walked away

I left behind the handsome face

Hoping the image would stay that way

As I walked through the door, he disappeared

Leaving me breathless, filled with fear

What if they see the man that I am?

Vulnerable, wise, a fool

Who was I, that Mr. Confidence showed his face?

I’m just an average guy, with average ways

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder;

Only if the beholder holds their own beauty

What will I need to have my cup filled up; a stare,

an advance, an unwavering glance?

Will he show up, when I need him the most

Or will he disappear when I’m on my own

How will I be the man of my dreams?

When I can’t see myself as others see me

What will I do to fall in love with you?

Send a picture; write you a letter, a poem or two

What will I do to get over you?

When your reflection of me, is all about you!

Carl Meadows

April 4, 2011

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I was born June 13, 1967. I was raised in the town of Port Coquitlam, BC within metro Vancouver. I was a non-conventional boy winning awards for choreography, dance, and led many school performance numbers before grade 6. I also competed as a figure skater and was notorious for doing cart wheels on the ice. I was bullied all through my school years and ended up going to 3 different High Schools and didn't graduate from High School as a result. This was the era of no Gay Rights in Canada. I struggled with visibility, identity and self-esteem. I am one of the lucky survivors as most of my friends died of AIDS or committed suicide. I graduated as a Registered Nurse in 1993 and it was one of the proudest achievements in my lifetime. It taught me that despite hardships, I could overcome insurmountable challenges. I am committed to making the world more compassionate and doing my part by celebrating LGBTQ contributions to the world. Every year my husband and I host a Fall Gala for 'Out in Schools' called the 'Fall Gala". Part of this vision is to make sure every student in BC has the opportunity to see their self worth through LGBTQ visibility, support and action to make the world safe for everyone. In my professional life, I am a Registered Nurse and a Health Services Administrator in Health Care. I live with my husband and our dog Ted in Penticton BC

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