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Poem: The last note


If you were saying goodbye to someone you loved deeply and knew it was possibly the last time you would see them in your lifetime, what would you say?

The Final Note

As I sat down to write a final note, I wondered what to say

Fearing each written line would pull me further away

Thinking if I wrote what I wanted to say, you would stay for eternity

My written thoughts would be prolonged till the ink disappeared

I stared across the landscape, my emotions felt heavy

The last leaf torn away, from the tangled branch to hang still and empty

The time of fullness had passed in all its glory

Does the word forever have any meaning?

Knowing my heart will always remember

Was it enough to sustain me?

Will the memory fill me with warmth, when I am feeling cold?

Is it the last time, the last tear, or the forever in that last kiss?

Did the words “I love you” ever make it to your soul?

The invisibleness of knowing what forever was

The touch of your skin, your smile, your love

As I turn the last page of the diary, it ends as it began,

With a simple “I love you”.

Carl Meadows

March 12, 2015

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I was born June 13, 1967. I was raised in the town of Port Coquitlam, BC within metro Vancouver. I was a non-conventional boy winning awards for choreography, dance, and led many school performance numbers before grade 6. I also competed as a figure skater and was notorious for doing cart wheels on the ice. I was bullied all through my school years and ended up going to 3 different High Schools and didn't graduate from High School as a result. This was the era of no Gay Rights in Canada. I struggled with visibility, identity and self-esteem. I am one of the lucky survivors as most of my friends died of AIDS or committed suicide. I graduated as a Registered Nurse in 1993 and it was one of the proudest achievements in my lifetime. It taught me that despite hardships, I could overcome insurmountable challenges. I am committed to making the world more compassionate and doing my part by celebrating LGBTQ contributions to the world. Every year my husband and I host a Fall Gala for 'Out in Schools' called the 'Fall Gala". Part of this vision is to make sure every student in BC has the opportunity to see their self worth through LGBTQ visibility, support and action to make the world safe for everyone. In my professional life, I am a Registered Nurse and a Health Services Administrator in Health Care. I live with my husband and our dog Ted in Penticton BC

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