As I laid down beside you, I let every bit of air leave my lungs

You were everything I thought you were, and I must let you go

You covered me with an anointed oil that has no antidote

the residue is something I have come to accept

I outlined your silhouette, with my hand 

I touched my heart as if it was a tangible object to stroke and console

At times your presence has provoked my inner child

moreover, you have reminded me of my pure humanness

please let me lay beside you, so I can stare into your reflection

I promise I won’t need you forever 

Only tonight, when I need to hear you breathe

when I awaken, I know you will be gone

as the first blinding ray of sunlight enters my room

I will know, you have let me go

Carl Meadows

April 14, 2016