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716ac1ff-3ea5-4608-a492-cbc9e5a45319-2060x1236.jpegAs I laid down beside you, I let every bit of air leave my lungs

You were everything I thought you were, and I must let you go

You covered me with an anointed oil that has no antidote

the residue is something I have come to accept

I outlined your silhouette, with my hand 

I touched my heart as if it was a tangible object to stroke and console

At times your presence has provoked my inner child

moreover, you have reminded me of my pure humanness

please let me lay beside you, so I can stare into your reflection

I promise I won’t need you forever 

Only tonight, when I need to hear you breathe

when I awaken, I know you will be gone

as the first blinding ray of sunlight enters my room

I will know, you have let me go

Carl Meadows

April 14, 2016

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I was born June 13, 1967. I was raised in the town of Port Coquitlam, BC within metro Vancouver. I was a non-conventional boy winning awards for choreography, dance, and led many school performance numbers before grade 6. I also competed as a figure skater and was notorious for doing cart wheels on the ice. I was bullied all through my school years and ended up going to 3 different High Schools and didn't graduate from High School as a result. This was the era of no Gay Rights in Canada. I struggled with visibility, identity and self-esteem. I am one of the lucky survivors as most of my friends died of AIDS or committed suicide. I graduated as a Registered Nurse in 1993 and it was one of the proudest achievements in my lifetime. It taught me that despite hardships, I could overcome insurmountable challenges. I am committed to making the world more compassionate and doing my part by celebrating LGBTQ contributions to the world. Every year my husband and I host a Fall Gala for 'Out in Schools' called the 'Fall Gala". Part of this vision is to make sure every student in BC has the opportunity to see their self worth through LGBTQ visibility, support and action to make the world safe for everyone. In my professional life, I am a Registered Nurse and a Health Services Administrator in Health Care. I live with my husband and our dog Ted in Penticton BC

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